a mile in new shoes

Wow...
Today, scratch that.... right now.... I feel completely out of control. My problem is... the ways that I used to control my "situations" were extremely unhealthy, self sabotaging even. I wont go into long drawn out details.. IF anyone cares to know the whole story I would happy to chat but I doubt anyone is interested. I have to say tho... for the first time in my life, I am identifying that I am out of control, I am standing at the top of this roller coaster... looking down and choosing not to let loose.

With the knowledge of Grace and God's Mercy, the Love of my family and support from my church, I know I can do this. I have to make a choice, every minute not to be consumed and controlled by my circumstance. And when I fall down I have to pick myself back up and start again...and again...and again

but I can